The atmosphere doesn't feel the same as one year ago. I haven't confirmed quite what it is. There are a lot of lofty factors to toss into the equation--as they fall with respect to me; geography, context, sentiment, personal experience, even the memory of last year clouds the present. I feel like i'm suffering the after-effects of some awful drug trip that was supposed to be paradisaical. So perhaps last year started just as slowly. The social crawl began only as a twitch. The twitch became a jerk, and that jerk landed me in the crawl.

I loved every second of the social struggle. Here, now, the climate is dreary at best. I'm convinced it's the economic downturn (plus a few noise factors not-so-directly related hereto). As you may have seen from
my previous post, i just started life as a temporary worker bee at Ford Motor Company, or
FoMoCo. as stamped on their blocks, which i think is awesome simply because that's what i'd already been saying in my head.
Anyway, Ford, GM, Chrysler...
The Big Three, are falling..trough-ing like never before. The climate for an intern is gloomy at best. Interning in years passed, you get the same phrase (said many ways) from your seasoned, full-time counterparts: "Learn how things work here so you can be ready to hit the ground running when you work full time here." Not
if. With all due deference to FoMoCo, and doing my best to avoid making disparaging remarks about them; the phrase here is: "Help us out, but don't get comfortable." I wasn't going to comment about this at all but given the latest deeper step into the trough,
Ford has made it impossible for an intern to make grandiose future plans with them. At all. But ugh..this is all so very half-baked on my end. I'm getting everything i want, but the timing is just poor. I know i didn't end up where i originally wanted to go with this, and i feel like i cheated myself out of some stream-of-consciousness revelation. That's blogging for ya. For your trouble, above is a
photo i took last year (when it was both figuratively and literally SUNNY in my interning career).
Labels: "big three", confusion, ford, internship, sadness